August 1 ,2009 Saturday
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Bum mode, hell yeah I know there are so many homework’s, projects, personal problems with my sister and with some friends.This past weeks of the term, can be my worst and unforgettable term of my college life. There are so many mix emotions going in the “circle of friends” my former block dv2. I really miss them, all the happy and jolly memories, “lahat ng pangaasar namin kay dimz”. But know I rather be alone and run away from them.
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“naiipit ako” ” naiipit at nasasaktan, wala akong kasalanan naiipit ako at nasasaktan sa mga sinasabi nila, tinago ko lang yun promise ko sa isang barkada ko dahil promise yun eh,” “pero dahil doon sa ginawa ko madami nagagalit, madaming naasar, madaming nagtatampo, “hindi daw ako tunay na kaibigan dahil hindi ko daw sinasabi yung mga nanalaman ko. ” sa situation ko ngyun. naiipit ako sa away ng mga mga kaibigan ko makukulit,kahit na galit sila saakin ok lang saakin, pinatawad ko na sila at sana din naman patawarin nila ako sa ginawa ko, hindi na ako galit pero nasaktan ako ng lubusan, yun poh ee,” for now palamig mode muna ako, iwas mode muna, I hope this end soon,!! I am willing to share my side when the war is over?!
For now I hope this drama will end,
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In the other news, haiz it’s been 4 months no communication with my carbon copy (trix).
“grabe wala talagang pansinan” it’s been 4months no communication at all, verbal and action. It’s been so stressful for me not talking to my sister, yeah I know it’s my fault, it’s really a bad idea that you protect you sister to a stranger? for the past years me and my sister keeps secrets to each other, like I used to cut school and she is the only one who knows where I go and what the hell I am doing. Then when I am on my way home I always brought a dozen of krisy kreme just for her. I really love my sister so so so much. She is my friend when I am so down. She is also my partner in crime when we are going out. We always go to the same salon and have a haircut together. We also eat together. “kahit ano, or kahit gaano kalaki ang gastos ko ok lang saakin basta ang importante, basta” she is happy! “masaya na ako doon”
But now I feel that there are invisible walls in us, from the moment I arrived from school she just ignoring my greetings and went to her bed and sleep. I intend to tell some corny jokes I know but all I see is anger? There are incidents that I really want to talk to her face to face but still she is avoiding me and completely change her number. I feel that I am an only child trap in the four dimension of my house. She intends to talk to her friends rather hanging out me and go Malling. Oh this is really pissing me off. And still I have nothing to do but let time past the incident and we forgive and forget. Honestly speaking i really miss her, and I don’t know what to do or where do I start?I’ts like loosing the half of you,!! I hope everything will be fixed, her 18th birthday will be on November 26 and that is really soon, haiz. For now I am ready to sacrifice everything, even my schooling. I rather be in a unknown school and she is in benilde, ” masaya na ako kapag, masaya na siya”. huhuhu =(
I am a bad brother????
to be continue
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- trix
